After a long, summer nights dream.

Economics is controlled by choices.
Our lives are controlled by choices.
So why is it that every choice we make is wrong?
Why is it that each choice, each decision leads to a different path, a different journey? Unsure of whether you'll stumble or you'll take the lead valiantly, unknowing of the future and the result.

Economics is said to be the study of "wants", but how can we be so sure about what we want? Why is it that when you want something, someone, it just so happens that they can't be yours. Why is it that in life, when you want something, you can never have it, then you have to compensate for it by having a replacement. Something that you don't want as much as the original, but it still temporarily fills the void of longing. Why do we even bother finding a replacement if we can't have the original? It'll never make you as happy as the original would so, why? Maybe the answer is that we don't want to disappoint our family and friends. Maybe we want to hide from them, our true feelings, our REAL wants. So you put on a brave face and settle for less than your standards.

What's the point of longing for something when you'll never get it? And if you do eventually get it, will you still want it as much as you originally did?
Those who wait forever, sure, their feelings will always stay the same, however, the wait can turn out to be a waste of time. How long will it take until they realise you're the one? Why is it that Karmic Synergy guides you to a place, guides you to a person, but doesn't guide you in what to say or do?

Many oppotunities missed, so many wasted. Not knowing how or why, but knowing they're the one. Why is it like that?
You find someone, but they serve a different purpose, one of life lessons. But you meet someone else and you're suddenly drawn to them. Strong attraction. Rapid heartbeats. Inability to comprehend. Confused feelings. Interesting conversations. Long talks. Awkward situations.
Why do we endure it all? All this in the hope that this time, Karmic Synergy pulled you to that direction, not for a life lesson, but for a life journey. Moving forwards, not backwards.
Why do you get disappointed easily?
Why is it that when you try to stay away, you keep getting pulled back? Like magnets.
Trying to stay in the safe zone, suddenly got dangerous.
Why is it that all of these harmless, normal personality traits have got you shaking at the knees?
Every smile warms you cold, dead heart. Acknowledgement as opposed to ignorance has become a new habit.

Waking up for a brand new day gets easier and easier. You're left sitting there, hoping they'd sit near you. But you only have ten minutes of pure bliss before everything gets awkward. Introductions into conversations are confusing and awkward but it brings you closer together. Karmic synergy just guides you, but your choices are what controls you.

Ann3a.
(Yes, I did change my name)