Episode 2 - Bubbly

Every day is the SAME! It always ends up like this, I see Zac, Go "Blushy and Lovey-Dovey", then I smile for the rest of the day. It's MADNESS! I just can't control myself. Every touch, every Ki- Wait! We haven't gone that far! Anyway, well the point is, he ALWAYS makes me smile, I'm always blushing and smiling. I can remember everything about him. He makes me feel so, different. I just can't explain it! He always makes me smile even when I feel so sad and depressed that I, myself can't even walk or laugh. I still remember that time when he was there for me. I was feeling so sad, (This was in September, A week before my birthday, it's now October...) he noticed this and he played his guitar, sang me a song and comforted me. Even then I couldn't resist smiling (which James was angry at because he was trying to make me do that for 5 and a-half hours.). I just can't help it.

Being the girl I am, I'mm exactly the opposite of what Zac likes. Then again... No, that's right. Look, I sound so stalkerish writing about him like this but I guess it helps me get over my depression. I just, mmm, I can't help it! I'm just so, I don't know, having a GINOURMOUS CRUSH on him. Or could it be more? I don't know.

His smile, his eyes, they're so alluring! I can't help but smile when he smiles. It's just, I don't know. Never before have I actually been affected by a smile. It's just breathtaking, so magnificent, so BEAUTIFUL I can hardly keep my eyes off it. The way Edward feels about his Bella (Twilight) is the way I feel about him. He is my own personal blood-type, my own personal drug, my own personalised flavour chocolate, I'm so addicted to him. When I say addicted, I mean in a 'Can't stop loving him' way. I just used the word love, could it be love, I don't know, all I know is that I'm addicted to him.

Knowing that he's my drug/Blood-type (Twilight) I ALWAYS either see him or talk to him because I know I'll 'Break-Down' if I don't. I wonder what would really happen, I don't know if I'll break down, that was an assumption. I guess the year after next year I have to seperate from him so I wonder how I'll take it. I'm going to make use of the little time I have left with him, my goal is to make as much use of the time as possible and not waste a second because no-one knows the future and no-one knows what will happen next.

I guess this is it, no-one wants to hear me go on about my 'Crush' on Zac so I guess this is it for now.

Loving every minute,
Alice