The Sides Stories of A.Marcellus #9

Irrational Fears

For the sake of upchucking my insanity somewhere, I am going to write of list down of all my irrational fears with plague my mind throughout my average day.

Alexis' Worries:

• That the web cam is streaming and everyone can see her.
• That the world she lives in is nothing more than a simulation.
  
• Having depression, anxiety, avoidant personality, narcissistic personality, split personalities, schizotypal personality and/or an aneurysm.
• Dying alone.
  
• Being mugged.
  
• House fires.
• Robbery.
• Getting arrested.
• Being convicted.
• Jail/gaol/prison.
• Being bankrupted.
• Being homeless.
• Being in a crappy relationship.
• Never being in a relationship.
• Whether or not people are scheming behind my back.
• Swallowing a poisonous insect in my sleep.
• Choking on (and subsequently dying from) swallowing an insect in my sleep.
  
• Swallowing ANYTHING in my sleep.
• Looking like an idiot infront of someone I'm interested in.
• Looking like an idiot infront of their friends.
• Socialising.
• Being hacked.
• Having my finances stolen.
• Being stalked.
• Dying on the toilet.
• Dying naked.
• Being outside in my house clothes.
• Being outside in NO clothes.
• Being pregnant through odd means.
• Dying a virgin.
• Being killed in bed.
• Breaking my own stuff.
• Vomiting.
• My tv falling and destroying my computer.
• My life being a reality/soap opera show. (See The Truman Show)
  

Yeah, I stress about alot of things.

The Side Stories of A.Marcellus #8

Impending Insanity

Well, I'm officially on holidays and I suppose it's a joy that it started two weeks earlier than last year. For most people, this is a great time to just go out places, see the world and enjoy the company of friends and family. But, lets be honest here people, I'm not "most people". I'm more like "one person". So, my main point is, I've become a hermit.

It happens every holiday break I get. I just sit around inside my house, sleeping, eating, showering and surfing the web. Oh, yeah and going insane. I think I might be developing some bizarre sort of cabin fever or agoraphobia. It's only been one week and I have found myself sitting in an empty room trying to dig into the meaning of existence. For a few days just sat around the house thinking, "What if our world is just a simulation of the existence of another world?" In short, what if we were 'The Sims' of an even greater world. Our existence would be nothing more than the 0's and 1's of a program.

I went outside yesterday to collect some documents. I went out, collected my papers, greeted some friends than hurried home because the sunlight made my retina feel funny. I'm starting to dislike sunlight more and more. Also, I'm pretty sure I was acting weirdly yesterday. Colder, distant perhaps? It's all my impending insanity. Eventually, I may see my world matrix style with occasional 0's and 1's on random objects. Or every green or slow-motion.

Tah-tah,

Miss A.Marcellus

P.S: If you need me, I'll be at home for quite a while.

The Side Stories of A. Marcellus #7

Ears, cars, dresses and men

Hello, hello. In all honesty, did any of you really miss me? Is there even anybody out there? Or is this like a comedian doing their stand-up routine to an empty bar? If so, than that's just fine. I can write any old thought and it would be a-okay, seeing as I'm the only one reading it.

Where the heck is Bill? I want to see him and imagine he and I doing extremely dirty things. Nah, I chickened out.

Ears
More importantly,ear drums. I'm sure general knowledge has taught you the importance of the ear drum in hearing. Well, guess what? Mine is blocked. You see, I was washing my lusciously smooth, silky hair when a small deposit of water decided that the market was good now and made my right ear its first home. The end result? My right ear is now blocked. I've tried just about everything but ripping my ear off. Hearing was pretty interesting the first day. I.E. I could only hear things towards the left of me. I did read some interesting home remedies. For example, one recommended putting some sort of concoction containing vinegar in the ear. My personal favourite is hopping on one leg whilst hitting the side of your head, which you have to tilt.

Okay, I have one more funny little story to tell you before I stop complaining about this. I told my mum about my problem yesterday morning and she said she would have my dad arrange a doctor's appointment in the afternoon. So later that day, I arrived home early, expecting to leave immediately for my appointment. My dad commented on the fact I was home early, I explained I thought it was for the appointment. Long story short, my mum forgot to mention my problem to my dad, so I didn't have an appointment thus it was pointless of me to come home early and the clinic will not be open until Monday (it is currently Friday). That information led to an over the phone miniature argument between my dad and my mum, the end result being my mum calling me and telling me to just jump around with my head titled. Oh, and my ear is still blocked.

Cars, dresses a.k.a the works
Graduation is coming up and of course that means it's formal time! My group of friends want to hire a car and get our make-up done. I plan to get my eyebrows shaped and waxed. I'm also getting make up done, naturally. Some people have been wondering what my dress looks like. However, I'm not very skilled at describing dresses so, I took a photo of it. I'll post it up later, okay? It's a very simple silk black dress. There's so much to do, so little time.

Men
...Or complete lack thereof. Earlier this week we went rock climbing for school sport. One of the rock climbing instructors was somewhat attractive. As he was explaining the safety procedures and what not, I had an epiphany. Hot guys should not explain safety procedures. I had realised all was I doing was staring at him, I wasn't even listening to what he was saying. That's not very safe. Hot guys shouldn't explain stuff because everyone will just be mentally undressing them. Ugly people shouldn't because people will just be staring at their imperfections. The perfect combination is people who aren't an eye sore, but aren't necessarily easy on the eyes.

Well, that was a side stories...sort of.
Till next time,
Miss A. Marcellus

The Side Stories of A.Marcellus #6

Well, it's been another month, you know the routine. Miss A. Marcellus will make another blog post.

The Past

My past is comming back to haunt me.

A few months ago, my friends and I were talking about the old primary school days. We were reminiscing about sweet memories from our younger, more innocent days. The childish games we played and moments that made us crack up laughing. Then the topics started to swing to boys and crushes, a important part of growing up. Eventually, our chatting got to the topic of "Bill". Bill was a guy who apparently had a crush on yours truly back in primary school. I honestly was completely oblivious, mostly because of my crippling lack of self-esteem. I just thought that we were good friends who talked and laughed like good kids should. After primary school, we stopped chatting, it's hard to be friends with a guy whose not in your class anymore. We just went different ways and the world kept spinning. I only learnt about his apparent crush on me a few years back anyway.

Well, recall how the topic of Bill came up earlier? Okay, you may not believe this but the next day my friend and I were walking to homeroom and we saw a guy who looked exactly like Bill. My friend said, "Is THAT Bill?" after that, I was edgey and nervous the rest of the day. Well, I found out the answer to my dear friend's question.

Yes, that IS Bill. He's returning to our school. In fact, I keep seeing him walking around with his friends. So now, I know about how I was apparently his "puppy love" crush. It makes seeing him around awkward. To make matters worse, I'm convinced that a part of Alice wants me to go out with him. All in all, ignorance is bliss and I can't ignore the fact that Bill liked me.


Well, I've wasted enough time. Ciao,
Miss A. Marcellus

The Side Stories of A.Marcellus #5

"Even Alexis has more fun than me."

I just read the last post on this blog (which isn't dying but is on life support). I only have one comment to make on it. Really, Alice, really? Right now I'm sitting couped up in my bedroom whilst my brother entertains his guests. It's not very fun in here, trust me.

The Past, Present & Future

Okay, I have several topics I want to share with the world split into three parts of my life. My past, my present and my future. Today, we'll go with the present.

This morning I felt like hell, not physically, but mentally. Sometimes I get those mornings where my life seems futile in the grand scheme of things. You know those days, where you have to find a reason to get up out of bed? Sometimes finding a reason takes a long time. But, I found one, my brother's friends were comming over to the house. Rather then be a nuisance for my brother, I left and went to school. The first two periods felt agonising. Eventually I warmed up again and life seemed less bleak. At the end of the day I actually found myself laughing and smiling again. With the help of my friends. Without them, life would definitely be a desolate place to be in.

Last night, I faced the thought of my own mortality. When it happens to you in a realistic dream, it can be a strange experience. It made me think, if I were dying, how would I plan ahead? How do I break the news? I wouldn't know. I don't enjoy thinking about my own mortality.

Well, next time I'm here I'll tell you about how the past is comming back haunt me and what lies a head.

Till then,
Miss A.Marcellus

It's been a while... Is my blog dying like my bebo did 3 years ago?

Life aye?
Have you ever had those days when you just feel so, I don't know... Bored? Like everything you see is the same as the next? Everything you hear, you've already heard? Every outfit you wear just looks the same as the next? Right now, this is my life.

After the whole vampire fad... I'm just wondering, why is it now that people start to like Harry Potter? I've always had a bit of a thing for that curious little (Well, he's actually tall, but you get what I mean), glasses wearing, lightning bolt scar freak... Well, I guess it takes a village to love a man...

Urgh! Cha-Cha dancing. Although I am okay at it (I find it easier to cha cha dance in heels than to walk down the stairs), I really dislike it right now. No, not dislike, HATE! I shall fail this dance assessment in the best way I can because MY PARTNER IS A HORRIBLE DANCER AND PERSON! I'm sorry if I sound a bit pmsy. But it's true!

What a horrible thing. Well at least I can lounge by the pool, reading 'To kill a mockingbird', looking all sophisticated whilst someone checks me out.

What a boring, monotonous life to live... Even Alexis has more fun than me.

XOXO Alice

The Side Stories of A.Marcellus #4

Imperfections & All The Rest

Oh all the things we humans do to look good. Take an honest look over your life. I bet at some point you've done something painful, expensive, ridiculous or vain just to look good in the eyes of another. Right now, I'm sitting in front of my computer in some discomfort as a result of the orthodontistry that I under went yesterday. Put simply, I got braces. While sitting here in discomfort I continually ask myself, why did I ever go through with this two year commitment? I mean, there aren't any health benefits for me by getting braces. It's purely cosmetic. Even then, for the two years that I'll have these I'll feel that small nagging noise that everyone is staring at my mouth. I've already made the decision not to eat in public until I get them removed. Luckily for me, after the two years, I won't have to worry about people seeing my wearing my retainers. The reason? I won't be wearing retainers. I'm getting 'permanent retainers' that are like a wire along the back of the teeth. The only way you'd be able to tell that I have them, is if you shoved a mirror down my throat. Well, here's hoping by the time I get back to school my mouth doesn't look so mechanical. (Did I forget to mention that I'm currently on holidays?)

Okay, that topic is now out of the way, onto the next one. My holidays. I am currently spending it reading Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen. I just bought the book yesterday (I went shopping after getting my braces). I'm currently up to chapter 7 and am so far enjoying it. I'm enjoying it much more than I did Emma. I only flicked through it a bit and got bored very quickly. After that I gave it back to my brother so he could finish his novel study on the book. Poor lad. I also plan to at some point go out with my friends; all I need is a text message or a phone call with all the details. Unfortunately, I couldn't go out today because my parents were too worried about my 'condition' after getting braces. All I need to survive is a box of painkillers. So far my holidays are doing downhill since I got my braces. I had to cancel plans with my friends, my headphones broke, had my internet capped, ended up breaking my brothers DS and I predict that I will run out of painkillers today as well. Joy.


Hopefully, will be in a better mood next time;
Miss. A. Marcellus

Who said life's good without drama?

Maybe it's just me but, haven't you noticed that everything is just so...

Quiet?

I understand that life's meant to be good without drama but... I have a feeling that it's getting boring...

Yeah sure, Zac is okay but.... Nowadays I'm just...

Not attracted to him...

Jasmine, James, Cordelia and Alexis all think that I'm still head over heels for him but... The strange thing is that I'm not...

Yeah... Sure, it's been 3 years now... But, Carmen can have him...

For some reason, I don't feel as attracted to Zac. I think it may be due to my recent encounters with the many soccer teams, my long time 'affair' with Daniel Vosovic (He's cheating on his boyfriend to be with me... Jokes... I've never met him before but one day I will...) and meeting Dimitri.

Like all guys I've ever had feelings for, my friends eventually find out... Well guess what? They're not finding out until they read this blog... Actually, they don't even know Dimitri to begin with.

A lot has changed in such little time. All of a sudden, me, Jasmine, Jemima and Carmen are close friends and the dispute over Zac is long gone. I know that I can do much better than Zac and it kind of shows.

Gaining more confidence has helped. I feel like instead of burning on a stake, I'm actually gripping to it. I'm beginning to feel normal, I'm beginning to belong.

XOXO Alice

The New and Improved: Alice Gallaghan

I'm sitting here, eating noodles (Yes, noodles...) writing a blog, obvious much... Anyway, meet the new and improved, Alice Gallaghan! All the kinks have been fixed, here are some of them:

1. Less Zac obssessiveness, actually, it should be called indifference towards Zac (What a relief for Alexis, she probably would've dropped dead if I talked about him anymore...)
2. Slightly more confidence (Okay, well 2% is a huge gain of confidence as opposed to the original -50%)
3. New Eye Glasses! (Finally I can see properly AND they're Burberry! Got to love Burberry!)
4. Increased height (Yes, I Know, I'm TALLER than Alexis for once... LOL, who's short now aye?)
5. Built-in Sarcasm detector upgraded, with sarcastic remarks aswell!
6. Extra Bitchiness (Gossip Girl's rubbing off on me, style and personality wise! LOL don't worry! Bithciness factor can be toned down)
7. Extra non-mainstreamness

And, last, but definitely not least, RESILIENCE! MWAH HA HA HA HA!!!!!!

Well... yes, and you get all this for a price of...

This product cannot be sold due to the overwhelming cost!

Okay then! Now that we've established that... It's so quiet now! No-one except for Alexis has been blogging! This is so strange!!!!!

Yes...
Well....
I guess that's all...

Be prepared to be starved for a while because that's what I did to my Bebo (Before I decided to delete it)

Yea!

You know you love me,
XOXO Alice.

The Side Stories of A.Marcellus #3

Where's the Love?

I know I said that I would write a blog entry pretending I'm in love with someone. It's just that it's really challenging for me.

If I were to write it, I would want to keep myself in character but the problem is, with a lovey dovey theme, it's just not how I act. The idea of me spending nights obsessing and days trying to get one stupid man to notice (and eventually fall in love with) me isn't realistic. If you know me very well, than you know that my opinion of most men is a bad one. I think that a woman crying over a man is pathetic because a woman can be a complete, fully-functioning and happy adult with or without a partner.

Go on... you can call me insane or unromantic.

I feel like typing some more today. Am I the only one who thinks that vampires have become watered down in recent years? What happened to the vampires that made your blood freeze in fear instead of make you weak in the knees? I pretty sure vampires were a bad thing back in the day and not every high school girl wanted to go and bed with one. Now, I don't want to go and pick on one person in particular, Stephanie Meyer, but let me get this straight, sparkly vampires? The though makes my heart heavy and doubt mankind. If vampires are real all I can say is, on behalf of all of mankind, I am so sorry. Today's pretty boy "vegan" vampires make my blood boil right out of my eye sockets.

I'm not my normal self today,
Miss A. Marcellus

P.S: Why has our lives suddenly become boring with nothing happening? Maybe I should stir the pot alittle.

The Side Stories of A.Marcellus #1.5

"What IF?" Scenarios - Prequel


Hoorah! An update! After all, someone has to update this blog, don't they? Seeing as I've got nothing to better to do I, it might as well be me.

Now, in case you hadn't of read my previous post, I don't have any sort of "love agenda" like most of others. BUT, what if I did? It's a concept all my friends and I struggle to imagine. Who could I possibly adore, who? What would they be like? How would I act? Well, I'm going to attempt to write it... in my next entry. (Hence the '#1.5' in the title.) Really haven't gotten anything in mind about how it would go yet. I did think of what I wanted to do in the mean time however! It's an idea I got from one of my close friends; making a list of what kind of guy I like. It will give you a glimpse of what goes on in my odd mind. Before, I start though, I just want to mention that I do not care for 'superficial culture'. He could be 2 ft. tall and have a beard that ran to the floor so long as he covered most of the list.

1. Great personality
2. Quick-witted
3. Able to preform tricks with a 'Zippo' lighter
4. Age appropriate when compared to me
5. Preferably, not a republican
6. A gamer (NOT FPS however)
7. "Rock" as favourite music genre
8. Higher than or equal to me in terms of intelligence
9. Not a slob
11. No criminal record/Very law-abiding
12. Can play an instrument
13. Can make me laugh, but knows when being a clown is inappropriate
14. Is not anti-feminist
15. Is not racist/prejudice
16. Will not get on my nerves often
17. Is straight; I'm just not attracted to bisexuals
18. Can speak English at least decently
19. Rides a motorbike/scooter or can drive a car
20. Watches anime and reads manga
21. Doesn't smoke
22. Doesn't drink alot
23. Has gone/will go/ is currently going to university or college
24. Is creative and has excellent drawing abilities
25. Remembers my birthday and other important dates
26. Is fairly punctual
27. Has actual opinions about current affairs
28. Doesn't have a huge temper; is fairly calm most of the time
29. Up to date with the news (NOT gossip news)
30. Isn't hugely picky about things
31. Gives me some personal space
32. Looks good in a suit
33. Has good tastes

That's all I can think of on the top of my head. I can't believe I actually made a post that had a 'love' feel to it. The results would be, if a third (11/33) or more of these fits your description, chances are, that I would end up having a serious schoolgirl crush on you.

Oh, and if this list seems long to you, this is a short list compared to what other women want in a man. Not to mention, they want to find a man who covers the entire list! We should all wish them luck with that.

Looking forward to the next post,
Miss A. Marcellus

The New Year...

Just getting off a plane now. Heaps of things have happened since I boarded the plane and they all hit me in the face as I got off it. Like running into a glass door. Whilst visiting family overseas I realised some things about myself. These would include a) That I'm actually proud to be a part of three different cultures, b) Most of my cousins have accents, c) I'm starting to gain an accent, d) I find it easier to understand other languages, e) I'm thought of as "Beautiful" in my family's culture, f)I'm so in love with the actor "Shahid Kapoor" that I actually, literally got a nosebleed after watching one of his movies, g)I'm totally in love with Joe Jonas and the list goes on and on, however, the one most important thing I realised is that I think I'm over Zac. Even if I'm really not and the absence made me think of things other than him, I don't care anymore. I'm just going to live life, which is something that I haven't been doing for the past 6 months. But the moment I walked into my family's little house in that little village, I felt like myself again. There was no more pressure, none of the bad feelings I felt whilst I was still in Manhattan followed me to there.

For a while I thought about giving up, moving to a different school, faraway as my plan has always been. I used to think of studying faraway from home as a thing to do to meet new people and try new things but nowadays I think of it as a way to run away from my problems and start a new life without the drama's of living in a high end area where you must look perfect at all times.

However, this year I'll live it up because it's our last year together and everyone will be going their seperate ways next year which is why we must make the most of it. James and I are thinking of competing with Jemima Goldstein (The girl who thinks she's so smart) for the school dux.

Kayla Mayfair has actually become nice to me and I don't care about the likes of Carmen Dover. If she wants Zac, she can have him. I guess that after watching the movie "Jab We Met" and falling in love with Shahid Kapoor and Joe Jonas, I have a new outlook on life. The year's only just begun but I have a feeling that this will be the best. Just like the waves on the ocean coming forward and going back are precious memories, creating them, then looking at them, the past and present. I'm going to live life properly now.

I'll probably just tell Zac loud and proud that I used to like him. It's ok because I'm learning to love myself as opposed to continuing hating myself.

Slowly turning over a new leaf,
Alice

The Side Stories of A.Marcellus #1

Hello, hello. My name is Alexis Marcellus or as I prefer, Miss A. Marcellus. Only those close to me can call me by a nickname.

At the end of last year most people I knew had hopped on a plane a flew far away. (But, don't misinterpret that as a reflection of my personality.) So what does Miss A. Marcellus do when she no longer has to listen politely (as best friend's do) to the ups and downs of Alice's love life? I'll tell you what she does. She spends the special holidays with her family then she goes and shops for several days with her mother. "It's always a good time for mother-daughter bonding," I say. I also had a need. A need for a new look, I could feel the 'old of last year' clinging to my skin. So, when someone needs something, the logical thing is to get that something. I cut my once long, black and thick (too thick more like) hair to a new "completely different" short, thinner, light brown streaked look. Out with the old, in with the new; I changed my perfume, rearranged my bedroom and wore more mascara then "conservative" girls.

Now, enough of that little side story of my life, more about Alice and the group. If you have not already picked up, I'm Alice's best friend. Also, I'm one of the only people in the group not madly in love with someone. It's not that I hate men or am some closet lesbian, heavens no! It's just that too many feminist influences in my life have lead me to believe the majority of heterosexual men are no-more emotionally intelligent than that of a single cell nucleus. Or as more popularly phrased, "Most men are idiots." Of course there are exceptions (eg. my male friends and family members). Alice and I have been in the same class for around maybe five years? Oh dear, I'm no good with counting years. If we end up in the same class this year, I'm fairly certain it will be six. Anyway, my side stories will very boring as I have no perusal for a huge romantic love life. I could always blatantly lie to stir the pot and say that I was head over heels in love with Justin or Zac! Maybe even in love with them both at the same time! Ha! That would be a laughing riot!

I'll be sure to return,
Miss A. Marcellus.